AND THE MOST FUNDEMENTAL
WORD OF ALL.
I FORGIVE ..
We're not asked not to hate, though many of us grow up believing that it is unchristian to hate. We're not asked not to be angry either.
What we are asked, demanded of, beseeched to do, is to forgive.
In a strange kind of way, every time we pray the Lord's Prayer we are put under judgement.
as we forgive those
who sin against us.
Forgive us our trespasses, our faults,
our carelessnesses, and our wickednesses,
Now that could be a blessing or a curse, however you look at it, couldn't it ? And we're very adept - as human beings - at disguising our lack of forgiveness as something else. Call it tough love maybe - then ask yourself if you yourself would make the most of the tough love. Call it God's hatred of sin maybe and hope like the blazes that he doesn't apply it to you ..
Sometimes I think that the unforgiveable
sin is unforgiveness
A parable for good people:
Gospel of Saint Luke:
1 And he said also unto his disciples,
There was a certain rich man, which had a steward; and the same was accused
unto him that he had wasted his goods.
Seventy times Seven !!
reason people find it hard to wrap their heads around this parable. Come
to that I do think the gospel writer found it hard, for he mentions that
the pharisees were so covertous that they couldn't like this story. I think
the point is rather that the pharisees were good people. How could they
praise a wastral who fiddled his master's accounts? Well - we can't. But
lets hang on for a moment and look at this parable from another angle.
The first thing is that the Steward was wasting someone elses goods. Which every single one of us has done, and does do. Make this then, the debt. The sin. It is so seldom anyway - against the people that we think it is against, isn't it?
And we, like the steward are called to account. We have life, breath, intellegence, love - and what have we done with it ?
What the steward then does is to realise that what he has held so dishonestly was really the debt to the master in the first place not to him. Uhoh. He used his masters treasure and his master's debt as his own.
So it is for us. So much we hold dearly to our hearts with such resentment, so many of the heartlessnessess, the hurts - the injustices which we accept as direct blows to ourself are not hurts offered to us. First or last.. Dear me no - they hurt first those who do them. That injustice makes the doer unjust - that cruelty makes the doer cruel.
What a victory if it makes us cruel too, And what a blow to the Lord of Love if such debts build and grow. For whatever good reason, for whatever purpose. How such things lock us into the past, so that we cannot put out our hands to mend the present, for their bondange. It is indeed a debt, and it becomes larger and larger and more all consuming.
Think about it next time you are in pain. Think about it next time you think - "let them come to me first" - For we cannot serve two masters. Either we serve the God of 'You owe me' or we serve the God who halves our debt, over and over again. You cannot, I'm very much afraid, serve God, and the God of debt and ownership.
It is not my guilt, it is not my pain, to do what I like with. It is not my right.